Mixed feelings...

Sometimes training for this marathon makes me very sad. Not sad in a tear-jerking sort of way, but sad in the "wow, where have my evenings gone" sort of way. Often I have to re-arrange plans or cancel them entirely so that I can fit a run in after work. I don't work a 9-5 job and I have a commute on top of it so by the time I'm home it's a crazy rush to fit everything in before bed.

Drive, work, drive, run, stretch, shower, eat, sleep.

I've realized that if I have plans and need to fit in a run beforehand, I get incredibly stressed out. I can't seem to relax during the run and feel like I'm on this tight schedule. Due to that feeling, I usually just try to avoid planning things so that I don't have this cramped evening...but that obviously leads to me feeling like I'm not seeing my friends and/or having down time.

I've thought mapping a run near work before heading home...but I'm not sure I want to sit in my car for almost an hour after a long, sweaty run, lol. Maybe I should just suck it up and start running in the mornings. Did I mention I'm not a morning person? Yeah. Not at all...